How long has it been?

Quite a while if i do think so correctly. it seems not many people have been updating these things recently which (amongst just being forgetfull) has caused me to not either. ok fine, truthfull i just forgot i had a blog.

So basically, ive found a girlfriend and a job (earlier happened a bit ago... latter happened sooner)... hopefully both should turn out good.

I honestly dont know what to say, its been too long.

I have two weeks of some sort of trining type thing with the jobcentre to do, im not sure whats happeneing but i have to go in from 9am - 3pm every day for two weeks and all ive been told is were doing cv building... however if i dont go i will miss out on somewhere between £400 and £1000 in payments up untill i start my job D=

anyhow thats all for now =3

Spike revy lawliet rin lelouch neko santarius IV

people, seriously... get yourselves together

So, im kinda annoyed at the moment... for various reasons due to a select few people... its nothing fantastically major but its still enough to get me going.

I just wanted to say that... because im gonna try not to say who, or why... unless you really annoy me more... then i probably will.

good day to you all

UPDATE... i just found john williamson's music on spotify... im like really emotional right now because of this... john williamson is like an awesome musician... and hes australian (but im still annoyed)

what pokemon are you?

"Type: Normal You are young, impressionable and full of life. You are craving something out of life but you're not sure what. You could grow to be many different things but right now you're just happy taking it all in and getting everything you can out of existing. You are clever and have a lot of promise but you future is uncertain and can go any number of ways depending on the choices you make. You're kind of a follower but you always have you're eye on the leader because you want that power someday. But today you're sweet, unassuming and youthful. Enjoy it while it lasts."

i feel this fits rather well with me =3

Ruby, ruby, ruby,ruby...

"Let it never be said that romance is dead
'Cos there's so little else occupying my head
There is nothing I need 'cept the function to breathe
But I'm not really fussed, doesn't matter to me"

I start of with this as the last few days for me have been quite bad, I've tried my best to hide it but its inevitable I guess, see I live my like in a Zen like way, I accept all and dismiss none, I am happy with the world and therefore I am content, however if you live mostly in a state of "nonchalance" it is inevitable that sadness will collect in the duration of a long time and will all come out in one burst at one point every so often. that happened to be this weekend.

I've been told that the FurMeets tend to go a bit AWOL around summer due to wanting to do other things, I can sort of see the reasoning in that but I also kinda think if your in a fandom you shouldn't get restless when its not convenient for them, but I will not criticize because then that would mean I'm a hypocrite as I know I have done that many times myself.

Oh shit, brick just came on my mp3 player, I automatically cry whenever this song comes on on... oh well, ill be better in like 5 mins

Well, that and a few other things, the FurMeet turned out to be rather like a Geordie soap opera... in fact I'm getting a group pic done in the style of a Geordie soap opera... but so much happened its hart to really say it all so I wont. anyway, it hasn't lasted long, I'm getting better as I type, so this takes me to the opening lyrics, that depicts how my mind is in its Zen form, I do not need nor care much about physical possessions and I'm rather undecided on anything, I prefer to just go with the flow so to speak.

So I've done a few things in the last weeks or so, I've seen Widor playing organs at a number of different churches (also the bells in Newcastle) I've met a few new people, I've seen a few new places, explored Durham a bit more, I just need a job and a flat and I'd be good I guess.

Anyway, that's about all to say for now, I'm gonna leave you with a different part of the earlier mentioned song and the sentence "people are complicated.

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

"Could it be, could it be, that you're joking with me
And you don't really see you with me"

Three words...

Random Panic Attacks

I don't like them D=

Oh well, it wont last long, there a number of reasons which when added together can cause the effects of a panic attack and i seem to be doing them all.

All will be well soon enough

Also i have a bowler hat

Neko Santarius

its times like these...

when i need a hug, its annoying when you annoy someone because you tell them your views on a subject...

Feelin good

I'm rather happy...

so.....

Yeah, so the thing i wanted to do... didn't do it, there's no point.

I tried to but got told something which kinda stopped the plan before it had even started. I'm not sure what to think now, its not bad by all means, its something ive learned not to take too seriously, like most things. this means i can just move on but still... i must reflect upon it and see.

Oh well... i am off to bed, i must be up in about 4 hours

Hope you all are happily asleep or having fun somewhere =3

I be back

So, I've been gone a while... truthfully I completely forgot I even had blogs, oh well... I'm back now.

anyway, for some reason ive had "Caramelldansen" stuck in my head for like a week now or something and its still great, but then again the dance is better =D... especially done anime or fur style

There's something I want to do but kinda don't... well, its not that I don't want to, it's just... well, I'm quite nervous at doing said thing... its not that I haven't done it before I just haven't done it in a while (just to stop all you who might be thinking sex at this point... its not that) it is something of which I may have reason to think I don't want if I didn't know that I'm pretty sure I do want it, I'm just nervous which is sort of stopping me doing what it is I want... it may be a lot more simple if I had a chance to do the thing I want to do soon however it may be a while before the next chance comes around so my mind is constantly switching between confidence and well... being scared... I just hope I'm in a confident point at the time I get a chance to try.

If any of that actually made any sense... oh well

That's all from me right now

=3

WOOP 2

IM'A back

so hey, not much has actually happened to talk about...

well apart from RBW failing before it started (damn introduction of no unter 18's, im a man of my pack, if one member must be left behind i will always stay to help)

oh then there was the dreadfull brining back of red dwarf, too many problems with that to even remember them all, never mind list

oh and i still dont have a job...

yeah its been a pretty fail time for me lately but i intent to turn that around, how you ask? i dont know...

im thinking:

1) wait for space travel to be invented (hopefully soon)
2) get spaceship
3) name it "bebop"
4) become bounty hunter
5) ???
6) profit

but thats just an idea =D

WOOP

so, it looks like noone follows this blog anyway, ima gonna shutting down shop here for a while at least. the blog will still be up so if anyone does want me to continue just leave a comment and i will. thanks all... you may want to refer to my other blog though, i post exactly the same stuff on it

also, im keeping this for the reason of other people who i follow on blogger.com

anyway, thats mw out =)

WHY???

I decided to watch NCIS ... mostly cos i was bored, also cos it always makes me feel better... nope, not this time... turned out to be the end of series 2.

There are only two things on tv which ever make me cry... the death of ben in scrubs and the end of series 2 of NCIS (due to the fact both are complete shocks which you dont see comming). typical it would be this one i decided to watch.

scratch the last post

First of all, i just want to know if anyone still reads this blog because i post exacly the same on both blogs and its pointless maintaining both blogs if noone actually uses this on... if so please post a comment or something and i will keep updating it, if not i will probably stop.

anyway:

Why am I being all fucking emo... i dont need to be... i FUCKING ROCK!!! (ok maybe not)

and hey... i still admit i feel pretty useless and mostly in the way (sorry guys, im gonna back off) but at least im not useless and ignorning everyone *cough* *cough*

However, ive been made happier recently (partially due to the fact i hit my brother full belt in the kneecap with my walkingstick when he tried to take it from me) and am now feeling better.

so yeah, im pretty impartial... i also know im quite good with using a walking stick.

yeah, thats about all.... see y'all....

remember, i fuck shit up, so you dont have to

So.. things change very quickly

Big change since last night.

Woke up this morning feeling rather useless and in the way

I'm not even bothering making a long post today... what the point?

I Fuck Shit up!

so, first things first, ive decided to also be red as well as my monumental list of alterego's, i feel i should list them here for you to know:

1) Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV - black cat, mostly modeled from "the cat" in red dwarf
2) Rufus Kumquat - the alterego to my first alterego, this time being a dog and therefore having all the tendencies i dont have when as a cat
3) Dwayne Dibley - the other geeky alterego to the first alterego
3) Slick daddy - ma sexy pimpin self
4) Red - fox, smart with tendencies of crazy... and a cane

secondly, i have decided to add my red's cane to my pimp suit so it now serves two uses, and people said i was crazy to keep a cane.

also... i have decided fully to take life as it comes, ttry for things i want yes but mostly just go with the flow, whats the point of trying to fight everything, it will probably end up the same or worse anyway.

so hey, im relaxin a bit more from now on... things seem to be going good for all at the min anyway =D

anyway, thats me out... night all

Tis been a while

So I realised that I have not been posting on here much lately... I plan to change that.

I have been reading Ruby Quest (http://suptg.thisisnotatrueending.com/archive.html?tags=Ruby for all of those who don't know) lately also, this is awesome and I estimate that I may be finished it sometime soon with the rate or reading I am currently doing =D ... this however has pushed me into wanting to do two things: 1) cut down my weight a bit and 2) build up my manly physique, this however will take time so may be a while.

I have also been considering putting a little bit of different colour into my fur self just so its not complete black but I do not know what colour or where, any suggestions? or should I keep as all black maybe? or perhaps a complete change of colour... tell me what you think.

Lastly... my phone has still not come.. grrrrrr. I have however emailed to ask about what the fuck is going on.

Right well that's all really

Signing out

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

I fuck shit up

Sometimes i wonder...

... as to exactly why my mind must make me worry so much.

I worry about, myself, what I've done, what I'm doing, what I may do, the world, what could happen, what could be real or could be fake, what has already happened and may happen again, what I do, what I should do, what I shouldn't do, what I think I should do but really shouldn't do, what I could do but wont, what I cant do but want to, the people around me, the people I care about, what may happen to the people I care about, the possibility of offending the people I care about, things people want me to say but I don't, things people want me to do but I don't, not thinking enough, thinking too much, not doing enough, doing too much, spending too much, not spending enough, being too free, not being free enough to be my own self, relying on others too much, not helping others enough, not being there for others when they need me, thinking of myself too much, worrying too much, not having a job, not having an income, not making sense, talking too little, talking too much, putting people in awkward situations, putting myself in awkward situations, not being a good friend, going on and on and on about things which may or may not matter, conspiracies, people saying one thing and meaning another, people saying they like me when really they don't, meeting new people who I may offend, loosing old friends who I have already offended, jumping into things without thinking first, thinking too much about something and missing out on the opportunity, not having enough time in this world to do all I want to, trying to be impressive, trying to not look to self-centred, trying to be funny...


... wanting to be with you when I know there are so many reasons I shouldn't think that.

anyway, I just wanted to put that out there.

Hmmmm

Ever get the feeling that you have single handedly screwed something up big time and that sometime soon there will be almighty concequences heading your way yet your not exactly sure what it was you did or who to?

also, i have no idea exactly what i'm doing with my life, i have so many ideas but not enough guts to actually implement any of them...


... i feel like such a looser, i just want to win for a change. i know so many people who are total win.

admitadly, i dont like me... i never have so i pretend, i go round all the time acting self centrered and if i dont like who i am i guess i cant really expect anyone else to either.

Update

I'm SEXY... yeah... you know its true!!!

I'm also very self centered and FUCKING proud of it

so, i am now just a hat away from being "slick daddy: Awesome pimp"

I have the loose jeans, i have the dull yellow shirt, i have the red tie and the army boots, i have the long black jacket and the aviator glasses... now i just need to wait for my pimp hat to be delivered... yeah

ten to one ... items not in order

Ten turn ons

1. American, Australian, Irish or Scottish Accents
2. Someone who can put up with my insane ammounts of wierd
3. Someone who is a great musician/singer
4. someone who knows when a joke is funny and it has gone too far
5. knows their own mind but isnt too overpowering
6. Loyal
7. Willing to give new things a try
8. Wont argue about petty little differences
9. Someone who will suprise me from time to time
10. As in the famous words or Rayne Summers: "I likes dem titties"

Nine turn offs

1. Looks down on me as inferior
2. Getting mad at me constantly and trying to be manipulative
3. Someone who is Plain and boring
4. Someone who is Unadaptive
5. Someone who puts me down for being me
6. Somone who puts me down for liking the things i like
7. Does drugs/smokes/drinks alot
8. Complaining for no reason
9. Has no sence of humour

Eight songs you've been listening to on repeat

1. Ben Folds - Army
2. Ben Folds - Always someone cooler
3. Ben Folds - Learn to live with what you are
4. Ben Folds - All u can eat
5. Ben Folds - Free coffee town
6. Tim Minchin - Mitsubishi Colt
7. Tim Minchin - Rock n Roll Nerd
8. Tim Minchin - Ten Foot Cock and a few thousand Virgins

Seven bad habits

1. Acting like I'm 7, thinking like I'm 4
2. My tendency to act then speak
3. sometimes abandoning something out of boredom
4. not thinking of things to put so adding in random fillers
5. Wild mood swings
6. Feeling melancholy for no apparent reason
7. Procrastinating

Six obsessions

1. getting attention
2. cheese
3. Japan and all to do with it
4. females i know i shouldnt be interested in but still am
5. Web comics
6. Ben Folds

Five things you did today

1. Job interview
2. Lookd at red ties and pimp hats
3. listened to music
4. Talked on messenger
5. Chillaxed

Four things you're thinking of

1. Im Pimp yall
2. My melancholious mood
3. L
4. getting a red tie and aviator glasses

Three childhood heroes

1. Mr Motivator
2. Alvin and the chipmunks
3. Chip n Dale: rescue rangers

Two places you see yourself in

1. CA for the ben folds gig
2. My own home/flat (not sure where yet)

One thing you do before you die
1. figgure out what type of person i am and where i belong

yo

Ever had a point when youve tried so hard to convince others that you're cool that you actually start to believe it yourself... then you rralise your not...

... no? well i guess thats probably cos most of you who read this are actually cool to begin with

well anyway, i just had that thought, now im partially down...









... i want to belong

Evil - (insert catch phrase here)

so... first of all i would like to point out that i am chilaxin, drinkin a beer and watching red dward... how much more manly could i be?

right, so ive started a cult simply called "EVIL" ... its mostly so if you get pestered by bible people you can hand your own pamphlet and scare em off =D ... however it is not finnished yet so will not be unveiled untill i am saticfied with it completely. i need advice though. i need a catchphrase. i was thinking:

EVIL - cos you deserve a bit of fun
EVIL - just do it
EVIL - makin this shit fun
EVIL - makin this shit fun yo
EVIL - Pimpin goodness
EVIL - anything you want for your soul
EVIL - cos dark is awesome
EVIL - now available in lil evil too

so, what are your thoughts on the matter?

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

OMFG

i now have £117.19 in my bank... WOOT ... this is good saying as this morning a had 74p in it. the payment finally came through, more then i expected though... oh well, who am i to complain.

whos da pimp now

Spike Revy Lawliey Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

“So you're gonna live in Paradise...

...With a ten-foot cock and a few hundred virgins,
So you're gonna sacrifice your life
For a ride on a UFO”

Not much point to putting that apart from it is a great song.

Anyway, so I didn't have my power cable for the laptop all yesterday, I eventually found it where all things end up... down the side of the sofa, damn.

So, I got thinking and was doing nothing but until about 2am, this happens on a regular occurrence, however, whereas most of the time not much comes from it, a few times I will suddenly gain access to the answer of something I may have been thinking of for a while. Anyway a few people lately have been asking as to what sexual preferences I am.

I have thought about it long and hard (hehe, that wasn't supposed to be a sexual reference BTW) and I have come to the conclusion that I am pretty much straight with being gay only to the point of flirting with guys, I don't think I could go beyond that honestly so I'm not going to try.

Sorry guys, this means you don't get my awesome self

Meanwhile, your in luck ladies, you've got me all to yourself

(not that I'm trying to make myself sound arrogant at all)

Anyway, that's about all apart from I may have a interview soon, this makes me happy, especially as the job would give me free cinema tickets and advanced viewings of films. =D

Pimpin out y'all

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

Ah... Right

so, im feeling down at the moment.

i shall not say why (this has nothing to do with death note though that may have contributed)

at least i have my friends online to make me feel better =) thanks draken and laura, your doin great

plus there is the money i should be gettin on tuesday (this will not much help my mood but will help other things) and the fur meen on sunday so all will be well soon

whenever i get one of these downs for the reason i am in one now it usually only lasts about a day or two

anyway, there isnt really much point to this post really.... just wanted to post something

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

asleep cat SHOULD be asleeeeeeeeeeeeeep

... however it turns out that he is not. damn

so, i decided to log off early tonight to try and get some sleep... fat lot of good that did me. so i came back online... and found i didnt have anything to do either.

i wish i didnt have these points when i cant get to sleep due to thinking too much... seriously, my mind hardly works sometimes untill my head hits the pillow, its damn annoying

well, time to get back to being bored... hurah

Ever get the feeling?

     "I wanted you to know, that I love the way you laugh;
      I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.
      I keep your photograph, and I know it serves me well;
      I wanna hold you high and steal your pain"

I guess that might have been a little more appropriate if there were someone... well, there is someone but I still need to think things through before anything could happen because it would mean a whole different way of looking at things and although I think I would be, i'm still not too sure... you can love the song but not be able to do the dance... if you know what I mean! I just want to make sure I'm willing to do the dance.

Well,anyway, that's what I wanted to talk about anyway...

Question: Ever get the feeling you act inappropriately a lot without realising it?
  Answer: Yes... all the time


I am completely sorry if I ever act inappropriately at any time, (assuming my calculations that I am some one with ADHD and the mind of a 4 year old is correct) I don't think I really know things as a whole. I'm not sure what is the correct thing to say or do at the time so I just go with gut instinct and whatever my mind tells me to do first, I know this annoys some people but I cant help it, I have tried to be more thoughtful but that makes me panic (no... honestly) I don't seem to be able to thrive under some types of pressure, however when my mind is set t the correct wavelength I am great at it (weird huh?) I guess I'm not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me, I've had enough of that... I just wanna ask simply if I do do something wrong or act in an inappropriate way, please tell me so I will know not to do whatever it was again.

Thank you all

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

20th Feb

well, some people say friday 13th in the most unlucky day ever, i disagree, yesterday... being 20th Feb was so bad, absolutly nothing went right. so from now on 20th Feb will be my official unlucky day... here it is in list form

1) early for bus by 15mins
2) matalan didnt have the right size pants i wanted.. not good matalan, i trusted you
3) missed bus by 5 mins, had to wait 25 mins for next one
4) found out 1 of three people i was meeting wasnt going to be there (why kotori, why?)
5) found out second person was doing other stuff, (thouhg you have explained laura and i completely understand)
6)got stoped by 15 (not kidding) red cross people in street
7) when i told one of them i wass 17 to get out of talking she stated that i "look alot older then that) thanks
8) line in greggs was HUGE (ok not so bad but i was starved)
9) tried to look for pants in town, none there either =(
10) found thirs person i was supposed to meet wasnt comeing, seemed to be a message of there isnt a point if its just the two of us (i my be wrong but thats the message i got)
11) Hmv had death note but for way expensive price... forbidden planet didnt have it at all
12) missed bus home by 5 mins (again), had to wait 25 mins (again)
13) death note (series) is going to take at least a few more days to download
14) wireless card seems to be working again, just after i have paid for a wireless usb drive
15) wanted to watch "the warlords" but could not find it, decided to start watching "the x files: season 1"... couldnt find that either, watched bones to find it was a anoyingly annoying episode whioch is supposed to carry on a storyline from earlier on but does it all wrong (the gravedigger is suppsed to bury people alive, not on navy ships, also he would not be a female high ranking person from the FBI... WTF? and that was with booth being "helped" by the ghost of his old was buddy? its a invdestigation show not a sci-fi.
16) accidently smashed my fave cup while swinign out of bed after being pissed off by bones... it was full of coffee btw


i think that is all... feeling better now actually.

Point in time

So, I am at this very exact point in time very content. I feel happy with where I am, what's happening and the people I know, I just feel happy overall (and this isn't tiredness talking either) I just feel happy.

So, I'm expecting a few things to be happening over the next week or two, don't ask what they are because until they happen I wont be able to remember, joy, but still.

I have been thinking about my life and have come to the conclusion that if someone demanded to know everything about me, I would most probably be happy saying all but one thing, there seems to be just 1 single secret which I would not be willing to say (and don't ask because I am not going to say it =P )

random mess, I know but who cares, I'm happy =D

YEY

Oh another piece of news which most will already know, my new fur name has been elongated to:

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV ... this is because "Levy" as originally put was spelt wrong in “Black Lagoon” for the first series and is supposed to be "Revi" and I just had to add "Lawliet" after starting to read and becoming a fan of death note.

So that's everything.

Night all

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

I'M UPSTAIRS... =D

you probably don't realise how big a deal this is but trust me, its huge... for the last so long i have been having to sit downstairs connected directly to the router to be able to use my internet due to my wireless card breaking for no apparent reason, well i decided to just buy a wireless usb and it works, so now i can be anywhere. =D

so, i haven't been online for a couple days, if anyone missed me (peh) then sorry... i have been using the time productively to think of a plan of action which will be implemented once i find all materials needed and have enough money for them. this plan however will stay secret until it is fully operational. i will now say though that it will make some people laugh and will make Draken do a facepaw so all will be as it is normally.

is all for now. =D luvs you all <3

So... yeah...

So, a few lines from a ben folds song come to mind:

I'm just an ordinary guy
And all I want is to be loved - is that so wrong?

I find myself sitting once again, bored and alone. nothing to do, no one to talk to. I know in no L, but come one, who can be that clever and adorable (well... i can think of a few actually but that's beside the point)

I'm not finished two Deathnote books... thinking of starting to buy the Anime... i think it's on sale on play.com

I had one of those dreams last night, one of the ones which is great to have but i know i shouldn't really be thinking about it. not to worry though, the person in it is someone i haven't talked to for years.

if someone is out there and isn't busy with the bullshit that is valentines day today, please help me get away from the boredom which is surrounding me...

L

L is so adorable, i just wanna hug him =D

all i wanted to say

Spike Levy Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

Yes my fellow people, that is the full decided name for my fur self. I was going to put "Lawliet" straight after Spike but I could never remember it so I replaced it with Levy as in the character from Black Lagoon.

I am "Huggy Wuggy Kitten Man" too... which is kinda like my furs catchphrase if you will... I'm huggy yet respectable... don't believe me? (yeah, neither do I)

so, I've been thinking of (though I like the ones I have already since they are awesome and I am def keeping them forever with the big change of still using them a lot too) making my own fur suit... since the last parts were done by Draken and Rabid. I feel like I want to have a try just to see if I can do it anywhere near well... if I don't do a bad job on the ears and tail I may think of making a partial fur suit and then possibly a full one =D

I'm getting exited about this

Oh yes... I forgot to mention the Fur Meet on Sunday.... it was Awesome, I had fun... had skittles (the alcoholic drink, not the sweets) and made friends... everyone liked my collar and bell, most liked my ears and again most liked my tail... (going to the point of one person actually humping it)

So yes... that's all for now I think... well apart from, I have got rid of yahoo messenger and got MSN instead. yey

Night all <3

OMG... Huge realisation

Ever had one of those times when you just realize something suddenly as a whole load of information which seems as though it was missing for a while comes back to you? yeah, I have just had that moment.... I just realised that I have been absent from my body for about the last month and have just returned... I must say that although I had a great time seemingly away from this life (I like to think i was fulfilling my dream of being a bounty hunter who happens to be a fur and a warlock at the same time) I have not been entirely myself. if I have told you any information in the past month then its probably not true so you may want to ask again. there are obviously parts which will inevitably be true as even though I was gone I feel I had a little control. I just don't want people getting the wrong impression, I have been looking over some people, for example Elyse everything i said to you was true. rabid, same goes for you, but to show an example of somewhere i went completely wrong, something i told to Draken about borrowing death note books from Wolfie? yeah, not entirely true, I'm borrowing them from Rabid... damn mistakes.

i apologise if i offend anyone with these mistake type things i have been doing but i honestly didn't mean it.

well, it is me after all :D if making mistakes is a human asset then i'm the most human of us all.

signing off again

Spike Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

P.S. Should I try to put the full name of "Spike Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV" for RBW this year? Or should I just put "Neko-San" like last year? Would like opinions.

Got bored

so... i was in newcastle on wednesday... applied for 5 jobs, got one application form

yeah boring i know (though i did get 22 hugs :D yey)

bored now

going to a furmeet on sunday

not much else

just wanted to put that out to the world

yeah, that's all

c ya

signing off...

...Spike Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

so... snow eh?

right... so i began this week thinking i may get a few things done, first i wanted to get my hair cut, then go to newcastle to hand out a few cv's, i also wanted to go for a few runs to keep my weight in check and possible tidy my room. oh plus if i has any spare time i wanted to watch the rest of fate/stay night... looks like thats all im gonna be doing.

started this morning, i suddenly realised my hair cutting place is shut on a monday, not wanting to go putting cv's out and not being bothered to go for a run, i tried to tidy my room, realised its more then a days job so postponed that untill i have more free time. i ended up therefor watching fate/stay night. (good btw :D)

now i find out that the snow which was pretty bad today (i wont lie, i love snow but not right now... i also want to enquire if anyone will team up with me to run down northumberland street singing "walking in a winterwonderland"... that would be awesome) its apparently going to get much worse tommorow... meaning i wont be able to go for run and busses most likely will be off. damn. still gonna try though, guess i can trudge down to north shields and get my hair cut still.

anyway, in other news... nothing (apart from car, car, car, map, car, map, map)

(also i cant be bothered to spell check this)

i will probably be back tommorow but dont count on it...

night all :) <3

I need your advice...

So.. ive been thinking of changing my name for a little while now as some of you will know i don't particularly like my name. ive come up with something so far which may or may not be used. Ok so far i have "Spike ??? Lelouch Neko Santarius IV"

"spike" as in "spike spiegel" from "cowboy bebop", "lelouch" as in "lelouch of the rebellion: code geass", "neko-san" as in my alter ego, "santarius" because just having san would be weird, and back to "cowboy bebop" again for the fact its a long self made name with IV on the end as in "Edward Wong Hau Pepelu Tivrusky IV"

I need something to go between spike and lelouch however to elongate it a little. i'm thinking either "rin" from fate/stay night or L from death note... but would like any other suggestions, it must be a anime charactor from a GOOD Anime and must be shortish.

Also i would like your on whether to have "lelouch" or just "lelou" as he is called by "shirly"

Third thing is i need to know whether anyone has a better last name then "santarius", all ideas are welcome but it must begin with "San" to keep in with the theme of "neko-san"

One last thing... i have decided that since some read this blog and some read my other blog i will keep them both the same, posting the same blogs at the same time with only some differences when i feel the time is right.

Anyway, i look forward to your advice

c ya'll

name unknown yet (will just put neko-san)

dream like state

well, i put to you a question: have you ever woke up in the mornin after a dream which was so fantastic that for the first couple mins your happy, the next couple your confused and the next couple hours your trying desperatly to get back to sleep? well i have... for the past couple nights oddly enough. they both involved a female, someone who i instantly knew was perfect, funny, clever, witty, good taste, and she admited that she liked me in the same way i liked her, then i wake up. i find it bad that every time something good happenes to me i wake up soon after. she (i wont mention who incase she reads this or someone who reads this knows her) is to me as Hugo Cartwright is to Adrian Healey (the liar: stephen fry). she seems perfect and is the one thing i would like the most yet she is also imposibly out of reach. i do wish life was simple.

in oither news, its my birthday today, i got books, books, books, a tshirt and books. lol

right, im off now, see you all.

Come back to me

listining to "come back to me" by Utada Hikaru cos its a nice song. kinda prefered the little bit sung by elyse though, (meant that as a complement not to sound creepy btw)

anyway, i watched the grudge yesterday, not the crappy remake mind you, i watched the origional japanese version and it scared the crap out of me, japanese films are always more scary though cos nothing much happens, it lets the suspense build up untill its too much then releases a load of scary in one large portion at the end. this is why i love watching japanese horrors... that plus japanese is just cool anwyay. i was going to watch the grudge 2 today but the workmen are busy in the room with the tv so i cant.

im starting to think a bit more about getting a job and a flat, ive found a few flats which are nice faciong out onto the sea so i get a great view.

I may be offline a bit as i am rather busy doing other stuff at the moment.

Ive started rearanging my look lately too... ive stopped using hair gel so now my hair just sticks up however it does depending on whoch side i slept on the previous night. i also have a cool green scarf and a pair of maga huge hearphones which i wear with the top part sticking out behing my head

i have a question i will be asking multiple people over the corse of the next god knows how long... ive ever we manage to build communities on other planets and invent spaceships, does anyway want to become a bounty hunter and aid me in my bounty hunting... hmmm... i think thats going to be my official title from now on. Neko-San: Bounty hunter

appart from that all i have to say is that Obama made a great speech yesterday which i have downloaded and put on my mp3 player so i can listen to it again. appart from that is the news that its my birthday on saturday, hope everyone got me something :D ... nah just kiddin i dont expect anything

right thats all for now... c ya's later

Cowboy bebop... why oh why did it end that way?

well, i know i hav'nt been on here in a while so i will try to be a bit more on time with updating this thing, i must admit ive been starting to feel a bit down and lonely lately but comming on to see a commet by elyse made my suddenly cheary again, thanks elyse :D

anyway, i have now started and finnished watching cowboy bebop (including the film and the extra episode entitles ep XX) and have to say it has to be one of (if not the) best animes ever invented. though i am truely sadned by the last three episodes due to the charactors which leave in various ways. i know i would be sadned whoever left as all the charactors in it are great but these three happened to be my favourite three. darn.

anyway, i have been to the dentist today, my infected tooth is no longer infected however my new dentist is an emotionless prick. as soon as i entered the room i could sence a vibe of hatred. oh well, these things happen i guess.

anyway, i have one again decided to throw myself into my large plan to move to CA, america... not sure where about but i would love to live in america (oh and to thwart your analysis draken, not everyone in america gets shot every day, you just seem to have a wierd disliking of america)

anyway, i have been rather busy over the last so long doing absolute shite all but i promise to get up to date with things as soon as i

1) back up all items on my laptop
2) install ubuntu on my laptop
3) put all contents back onto laptop

yeah, basically my wireless is broken which seems to be a design fault with my particular brand of laptop and the only way to fix it is to install linux... so i am :D and i'm happy about it. yey

after that i will get up to date on:

1) Web comics
2) Blogs (sorry elyse i noticed you had a new blog but somehow i hav'nt had time to read it yet. this shall be fixed soom
3) tidying my room (the place is literally a pig sty)
4) getting some pics online (now that i have a camera and a memory card) :D
5) getting a job and preferably somewhere to live (as in my own place as opposed to saying i have no where to live now, hehe)

i think there may be more but i cant think of it. oh actually, i will put your blog on my rss feed elyse, makes it easier to follow.

anyway, i believe that is all for now. c y'all later :) <3

Happy new year

i know i haven't exactly done a blog for a bit now so that is going to change, here i am.

right... i have nothing to say. lol

anyway, Happy new year everyone, im making a list of things to do before i die so when that is finnished i shall post it on here

also my new years revolution is to not spend next new years like i did this one, i plan to find a job and a flat and spend it with my friends (hopefully in one big party, yey)

anyway, that is all for now appart to say i am about to orger a 16gig memory card for my camera i got for xmas which will cost £16 and i am also about to join the ben folds fan club

c ya later