Sometimes i wonder...

... as to exactly why my mind must make me worry so much.

I worry about, myself, what I've done, what I'm doing, what I may do, the world, what could happen, what could be real or could be fake, what has already happened and may happen again, what I do, what I should do, what I shouldn't do, what I think I should do but really shouldn't do, what I could do but wont, what I cant do but want to, the people around me, the people I care about, what may happen to the people I care about, the possibility of offending the people I care about, things people want me to say but I don't, things people want me to do but I don't, not thinking enough, thinking too much, not doing enough, doing too much, spending too much, not spending enough, being too free, not being free enough to be my own self, relying on others too much, not helping others enough, not being there for others when they need me, thinking of myself too much, worrying too much, not having a job, not having an income, not making sense, talking too little, talking too much, putting people in awkward situations, putting myself in awkward situations, not being a good friend, going on and on and on about things which may or may not matter, conspiracies, people saying one thing and meaning another, people saying they like me when really they don't, meeting new people who I may offend, loosing old friends who I have already offended, jumping into things without thinking first, thinking too much about something and missing out on the opportunity, not having enough time in this world to do all I want to, trying to be impressive, trying to not look to self-centred, trying to be funny...


... wanting to be with you when I know there are so many reasons I shouldn't think that.

anyway, I just wanted to put that out there.