Ruby, ruby, ruby,ruby...

"Let it never be said that romance is dead
'Cos there's so little else occupying my head
There is nothing I need 'cept the function to breathe
But I'm not really fussed, doesn't matter to me"

I start of with this as the last few days for me have been quite bad, I've tried my best to hide it but its inevitable I guess, see I live my like in a Zen like way, I accept all and dismiss none, I am happy with the world and therefore I am content, however if you live mostly in a state of "nonchalance" it is inevitable that sadness will collect in the duration of a long time and will all come out in one burst at one point every so often. that happened to be this weekend.

I've been told that the FurMeets tend to go a bit AWOL around summer due to wanting to do other things, I can sort of see the reasoning in that but I also kinda think if your in a fandom you shouldn't get restless when its not convenient for them, but I will not criticize because then that would mean I'm a hypocrite as I know I have done that many times myself.

Oh shit, brick just came on my mp3 player, I automatically cry whenever this song comes on on... oh well, ill be better in like 5 mins

Well, that and a few other things, the FurMeet turned out to be rather like a Geordie soap opera... in fact I'm getting a group pic done in the style of a Geordie soap opera... but so much happened its hart to really say it all so I wont. anyway, it hasn't lasted long, I'm getting better as I type, so this takes me to the opening lyrics, that depicts how my mind is in its Zen form, I do not need nor care much about physical possessions and I'm rather undecided on anything, I prefer to just go with the flow so to speak.

So I've done a few things in the last weeks or so, I've seen Widor playing organs at a number of different churches (also the bells in Newcastle) I've met a few new people, I've seen a few new places, explored Durham a bit more, I just need a job and a flat and I'd be good I guess.

Anyway, that's about all to say for now, I'm gonna leave you with a different part of the earlier mentioned song and the sentence "people are complicated.

Spike Revy Lawliet Rin Lelouch Neko Santarius IV

"Could it be, could it be, that you're joking with me
And you don't really see you with me"