Bored

God... I'm so damn bored right now, it seems I haven't had much contact lately, there was a short point of contact with Elyse on Sunday night but apart from that nothing. I wish there were more to do around here but there isn't. I know I could go into north shields but there is nothing to do there. I could go into Newcastle but even if it didn't cost a load it seems half the shops have either closed or are being re-built in some weird attempt to make the city look more "modern".

The north east is a great place to live in the large part of it but I would feel much better living somewhere else, for example America or Australia. maybe then I would have more friends. For some reason I seem to be able to make people realise they should be friend with each other but I only manage to annoy people when it comes to my personal friendships. I seem to annoy everyone and lately I have realised a large number of them have been talking about me behind my back which is why it makes a nice change to meet someone either randomly in my life or on the internet who seems genuinely friendly.

my plans for a job ides (the ones I said would be impossible in my first blog) have been renewed... I don't see how it couldn't work, after all I have been told in the past that I have the ability to over analyse things which is an essential part of the job, I just need to find out if going through education will be possible, money wise.

anyway, my rant is over for now. I feel calmer... still bored though.